So, it's my senior year in high school, I'm going to be 18 soon and I'm trying to prepare myself to become an adult. Unfortunately, I don't feel like I'm being given the opportunity to. My parents make me feel so aggravated and frustrated that as soon as I step in the door, I feel like I have 100 tons weighing me down every minute that I'm there. I'm so overwhelmed with school and work that when I come home all I hear is, "Brooke, is your room clean?!" I JUST CLEANED IT YESTERDAY! LEAVE ME ALONE! The only discussions I ever have with my parents are about MY ROOM and they text me about what I want to eat for dinner. It's my stuff, if there aren't any clothes on the floor, my room is vacuumed and dusted, and its neat, how much cleaner do I have to make it?? It's just so hard to satisfy them and now I just don't want to anymore. All my life, my mom was always on top of me about my grades. If I have a C, its literally the end of the world. What makes me so mad about it is that if I see that I have a C, I bring it up without them having to tell me anything, but they never say anything about that. They say I'm so negative, but I wonder where I get it from? Ponder. They make me not even want to try in school because they annoy me so bad. They get mad that I don't open up to them, but when I do, they jump down my throat, they don't listen and when I tell them I just want to be alone, I'm being disrespectful and they don't talk to me. WHAT IS THAT SOLVING?! They always complain that I'm never home and don't spend anytime with them. I HAVE TO SPEND 6 1/2 HOURS IN SCHOOL AND THEN AN ADDITIONAL 4 1/2 HOURS AT WORK! It was them that was telling me, "Brooke, you need a job," and now that I'm home by 9 o'clock every night it's a problem! The thing that really "grinds my gears" as Peter off of the show Family Guy says, is that when I am home THEY AREN'T SPENDING TIME WITH ME EITHER! For example, last weekend I did not go out AT ALL except when it was for work and I stepped out to go to Friendly's with my friend Gina, but right after I was home. I'm always in the living room when I'm home so I'm always within reach to be conversed with and where are they when I'm watching t.v. in the living room which is 5 footsteps from their room? In their room! How do they expect me to spend time with them if I'm never home when they are and when I am, they go to their room?? And I'm always the one to blame for everything. I have an attitude problem, I'm distant, I don't talk to anyone, and it's all my fault. Like what do you want from me? I go home and I can't even sleep at night anymore, I always wake up at 3 in the morning automatically. Who knows why because I sure don't? I just want to be given the opportunity to stay out for a weekend (two days) so I can get my head together because being at home obviously does not help whatsoever and what do I get, "No, your not coming in and out as you please." I asked for ONE WEEKEND TO MYSELF! Is that really too much to ask? Sheesh! I rather just leave and be on my own and do things my way without having to rely on them for everything. I think that's the issue, they want me to rely on them for everything and I don't want to anymore. I hate asking them to go anywhere or to use the car for something as simple as going down the street to get food because I get this long speech about MY ROOM. I just cleaned it, how many times do you want me to clean it thoroughly?! EVERY DAY?! Ugh, parents can be so annoying! I'm trying to grow up and they just will not let me. I don't understand why because my sister was staying in NY at her boyfriend's house when she was my age and I can't even go to my friend's house for a weekend so I can clear my head and relax! It's so stupid. I'm leaving.
