I have been thinking a lot lately about what I said I wanted to do with my life and I'm not so sure about it anymore. At first I wanted to go to school for Diagnostic Medical Sonography which is the ultrasounds, but then I changed my mind and decided that I wanted to go to nursing school. Now, I'm not so sure if I want to do either. Egan told me if he found out that I wasn't doing anything with myself next September that he would be pretty angry with me, but I don't know exactly what I want to do anymore. Now that it's almost time for me to go into the real world and major in something so I can get into a good career, I don't know what to major in. I don't feel like my heart is in what I thought I wanted to do anymore. I don't think that that's the path I'm supposed to go on, but I'm still clueless on which one I am supposed to go on. I'm not sure if I'm beginning to feel like this because I'm getting scared or maybe it's just because I really don't know what I want anymore. Before, my parents always told me I'm going to college period. When I got to school, that was the topic of every conversation, but now I just don't know if I wanted to go to college because I actually WANTED TO or because I'm SUPPOSED to. Everyone always made it seem as if that was the only option I had and in reality it's not. College is there to further your education and help get you to where you want to be, but what if you don't know where you want to be? What if you start school and it's your second year and you still don't know what you want to do? What if you find something you enjoy and pays well and didn't even need to go to college to do it? Would it be a waste of time and money? I'm just so confused now and I think I need to do some serious soul searching.
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I love this girl Jamie Carter. I've had the biggest crush on her since we were in 6th grade when I first met her =X I haven't ever been able to tell her face to face becuase I'm a wuss but .. I hope she'll come check out on my blog and see for herself.
