My future?

I have been thinking a lot lately about what I said I wanted to do with my life and I'm not so sure about it anymore. At first I wanted to go to school for Diagnostic Medical Sonography which is the ultrasounds, but then I changed my mind and decided that I wanted to go to nursing school. Now, I'm not so sure if I want to do either. Egan told me if he found out that I wasn't doing anything with myself next September that he would be pretty angry with me, but I don't know exactly what I want to do anymore. Now that it's almost time for me to go into the real world and major in something so I can get into a good career, I don't know what to major in. I don't feel like my heart is in what I thought I wanted to do anymore. I don't think that that's the path I'm supposed to go on, but I'm still clueless on which one I am supposed to go on. I'm not sure if I'm beginning to feel like this because I'm getting scared or maybe it's just because I really don't know what I want anymore. Before, my parents always told me I'm going to college period. When I got to school, that was the topic of every conversation, but now I just don't know if I wanted to go to college because I actually WANTED TO or because I'm SUPPOSED to. Everyone always made it seem as if that was the only option I had and in reality it's not. College is there to further your education and help get you to where you want to be, but what if you don't know where you want to be? What if you start school and it's your second year and you still don't know what you want to do? What if you find something you enjoy and pays well and didn't even need to go to college to do it? Would it be a waste of time and money? I'm just so confused now and I think I need to do some serious soul searching.

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I love this girl Jamie Carter. I've had the biggest crush on her since we were in 6th grade when I first met her =X I haven't ever been able to tell her face to face becuase I'm a wuss but .. I hope she'll come check out on my blog and see for herself.

Prom.

Since I was a freshman, prom was always my thing. Before I went to my first prom, I told myself that I am going to go to prom all of the 4 years that I am in high school. Little did I know that I would be attending more than four! My freshman year I went to prom with Erick Jones who was a senior. I loved that prom, it was so much fun! My sopohomore year, I went to two proms. I went to Highland's senior prom with a boy I used to work with at McDonalds and his name was Ahmad Covington. The second prom I went to that year was to Lindenwold's prom with Terrance Carter. I love him soo much :). My junior year, I went to two proms again. I went with my child-hood friend Eric Smith to his junior prom which he attended Timber Creek High School and he came to my official first prom. Now, my senior year, I only plan on going to MY PROM, NO ONE ELSES. At the beginning of the year, I wasn't looking forward to attending prom because I've been to five already, I thought this year wouldn't be very exciting because it's just another prom. I was wrong. Out of all the proms that I have been too, this year's prom is the most important one, it's the one that means the most because it will be my last one. I'm excited about it now and I found a dress that I want to wear and it is $500 (crazy right?). But, if that's how much I have to pay to wear the dress that I am officially in love with and must wear to my last prom, that is how much is going to be spent! It's my senior year and I only intend on going to one prom this year and since it's going to be my last. I'M GOING ALL OUT!




[GOING TO ADD MY PICS LATER]

Teacher for a day.

For my History mid-term, myself along with 2 other girls in my class had to be teachers. We had to teach a section out of a chapter from our History book and make our lesson stretch from the beginning of the class until the bell rang. I WOULD NEVER WANT TO BE A TEACHER! Before we started, I was extremely nervous. I was so worried because if the class begins to misbehave, we have to control the class, Coach Hanford does not intervene unless we call a time-out. Each group gets 2 time-outs. One is a 30 second time-out and the other is a 60 second time-out. Our group didn't use any of them, even though we should have. The hardest part of teaching the lesson was that students from other classes were coming in, teachers came in acting as students to mess up our lesson, IT WAS HARD! There were only two teachers in our class today: Coach Hanford and Ms. Wenzel. They weren't too bad, Coach was being a pain in the neck, but he wasn't terrible and that was a good thing because we are only permitted to kick out one teacher, but fortunately we didn't have to use that. Booshon Warrington, Jesse Nemeth, Anthony Jones, Jamil Coleman, and Devar Robinson all came into my class that period to cause a disruption. Before they entered the room, I heard them talking outside the door so I made them walk away. Unfortunately, they decided to take nerf balls from the gym and Jesse threw them at me while I was at the door trying to get them to get away.

For the most part, I was pleased with how it went. Last week when we were talking about the project, the entire class agreed to behave for each other because we are not only getting graded as teachers, but as students also. If we are playing the student role, we cannot get kicked out of the class or we get a zero and this is our MID-TERM grade. It was definately a lot of pressure on us. I felt anxiety the entire period because I couldn't stop laughing at what everyone was doing. For example, Matthew Weil came into the class and was acting like a 10 year-old. I think I would be a bad teacher because today I realized I'm very sympathetic and therefore I'm a get-over. :( (haha) I just kept letting him get away with everything when all we really had to do was kick him out because he wasn't supposed to be in the class anyway. Eventually when he got out of hand, we kicked him out and he WENT CRAZY! He began to throw about 30 papers in the air and across the room, he threw a desk, and he went to the board and erased all the notes Yacqueline wrote. It was insane! I used to think I wanted to be a teacher at one time, but after being a Senior Mentor and doing that mid-term project I've realized being a teacher is one of the professions that I want to stay far away from! I'm just relieved it's over and done with :)

Myspace.

I've had a Myspace for about 4-5 years. Crazy, right? When I first found out about it, I wasn't even interested in having one. One of my close friends at the time talked to me into making one and so I did. At first, it was very addicting. I always wanted to change my layout, put all these codes in it to make it look nice, talk to new people, and just socialize! Over time, I began to get on it everyday, all day and when Tom made it so that we could get on Myspace from our phone, I went on it EVERYDAY from there also. It's insane how addicting it was at first, but now I just think it was foolish. Because I've had one for so long and knowing so many people that has had one I learned that Myspace wasn't all that great. Myspace was supposed to be something that people could allow you to socialize and meet new people, but some people made it the opposite. It became a big topic on the news because girls were being abducted, raped, and killed. Grown men were seducing young girls portraying as a young man, and showing up to their houses and such. People like that ruin the positivity out of things and make it bad for people that weren't taking advantage. When all of those things were going on, my mom began to monitor my Myspace everyday and it was annoying. I barely put anything on it that could reveal anything important about me like where I lived, my social security #, or even my dog's name! Every time she would mention my page, it would be like someone was screeching in my ear because it was just annoying! I wasn't doing anything stupid that would put myself or anyone else in danger. Well, as I look back at it now, I don't see why Myspace was such a big deal in the first place. I still get on it, but it's not that serious anymore. I just don't feel the excitement of people sending me messages, friend requests, or commenting my page or pictures. WHO CARES ?! What I really cannot stand about Myspace is how much drama was caused of it! Relationships and friendships were ended because of comments that were left on someone else's Myspace. It was just very immature. IT'S JUST MYSPACE!

MY BFF *

Over these past few years, my life has been rough. There has been so many things that I've had to deal with that I just couldn't get through on my own. That's when *she* would come along and help me through it. This *she* I would be referring to is my BFF TY`ANA. Ty`ana and I have known each other for years and we've always been close. Like every other friends, we have our times when we become distant, but do you think that breaks our friendship? I THINK NOT! My Bff Ty is the best BFF around. She keeps all my secrets, she doesn't run her mouth, she's always there for me when she is needed. She makes me food, she does my hair, she lets me borrow her clothes, oh-em-gee there is just so much! We've went on vacations together to Florida where we met some cute guys (well they were cute to us then, who knows how they would look now). We take RIDICULOUS pictures together, we've probably made about 50 nicknames for eachother, sometimes people question our sanity. We've baked cakes together, well tried to before we started to eat all the cake batter, make a game out of it until our stomaches hurt so bad that we almost threw up! Good timesss, good timess. This all couldn't have been done, WITHOUT MY BEST FRIEND!

A Letter from the Future

Imagine that you are twenty-eight years old, and you're writing to a cherished teacher whom you haven't heard from in ten years. Tell him/her about your professional life. What do you do for a living and how did you get there? Consider the following: What schools did you attend? What special training and degrees do you have? Where do you work and what is the name of your company? What do your coworkers and boss think of you? What professional successes and awards have you enjoyed since graduating from high school.

Dear Mrs. Isme,

I know you're probably surprised that I'm writing to you because I haven't spoken to you in such a long time! I thought about you the other day and out of the all the teachers, you're the one that I felt I had a relationship with. How have you been? Are you still teaching? Well I've been doing extremely well over the past 10 years. Since graduating from high school, it's as if time just went by in the blink of an eye!

After I graduated, I attended Fordham University and majored in Pediatrics. I did that for a couple years while I interned at Montefiore Hospital in New York. I interned there about 20 hours a week then I held a job at an eye physicians office. Managing my time between school, interning, and working was a big struggle for me for awhile. I did that for about 5 years then I decided to get major in business so I went to Du Bois Business College for an additional 4 years. That was tough, but it all worked out! After I finally got my degree in pediatrics and business management, I worked at Montefiore for about 6 months and by the end of those 6 months I finally had enough money to start up my own practice. My aunt is a therapist and my cousin is a lawyer so they helped me out incredibly over these last couple months. My practice is called "Advanced Pediatrics." I set out to help families that can't afford for medical procedures, medicine, or anything they may possibly need for their children. With the help of insurance companies, we have managed to make all ends meet so everyone benefits from it without my business struggling due to lack of funds. I love it because I'm helping people that can't help themselves. Regardless of if they have a penny to their name and has a sick child, they can get treatment.

After a couple years, I want to find doctors who have degrees in medicine so hopefully we can get a practice open for adults who need medical treatment also. A lot of people I've went to Fordham University with who are currently doctors now have already told me that they would love to be a part of what I'm doing, so hopefully all will go well.

Well, I hope everything is well and I hope you write back soon! It would be great to hear from you!

Love always,

Brooke Garcia

Blog Visits.

Today I read Desiree, Brionna, Aliccia, Jamie, and Turk's blogs. What I observed about each of their blogs were very interesting. We are all different, but can relate to each other in more ways than one way.

First and foremost, I love how everyone did their blogs. I love the different colors and pictures. They make you WANT to read the blog regardless of what the topic is. Like I said before, we are all very different, but alike in many ways. For example, Des and I both feel the overwhelming effects of our senior year. The pressure is intense and sometimes very hard to handle. With that being said, Jamie's blog about her self-improvement book and how she has her anger issues is one of the results of how I get because of the pressures of my senior year. To relieve some of these issues, Aliccia and Turk's blogs give me some ideas of relief. Aliccia's urge for danger and Turk's nifty fashion sense are both productive outlets to help release stress and have fun! Aliccia enjoys staring death straight in the eye and Turk's daring personality to cause her to wear tu-tu's to school or wear a mixture of bright colors that looks GREAT together, but I would NEVER imagine myself wearing that and I admire her for her individuality. The one blog that surprised me the most was Brionna's. I never would have imagined her to be a procrastinator or to be like me and not be confident in New Year's resolutions. I feel like I can relate to her now because she always seems to be on top of everything she needs to do when I was wrong, she has her struggles just like me.

Reading my fellow classmates' blogs has truly given me a different perspective about other individuals. It's very common to judge people by what you see, hear, or how one interprets their personality and behavior. By reading their blogs it just proves that if you dig a little deeper, you may find something you never thought would be there. Like my mom always tells me because I never find anything in my house, therefore, she has to look for it, "Brooke, you never see anything that's right in front of you unless your actually LOOKING for it," then right after she says that, she hands me the object I was looking for. Guess where it would be?! Right in front of my face! Ha ha (she hates when I do that).

Anne Frank.

I chose The Diary of Anne Frank, as my self-improvement book. I find myself very ignorant to the world because I take my life for granted. I don't appreciate the life that my parents have sacrificed over to give me and I take for granted of having a roof over my head, having food in the house at all times, and getting an education. Because I am well aware of this, I think The Diary of Anne Frank, will give me a different perspective. This book went on during a terrible war, she was a 13 year-old having to hide in houses, be in the house by 8 o'clock, only go into certain stores, and certain schools because she was Jewish. I never had to go through anything near that and because of it I don't appreciate the life that has been given to me. I think by reading The Diary of Anne Frank, I will open my eyes to many more things about life and appreciate what has been given to me and how fortunate I am to live the way that I do.

LHS EXPERT.

If I could become an LHS expert in anything I would become an expert in the individual growth of students at LHS beginning from their freshmen year to their senior. I would want to do this because I find students at LHS (myself included) very weird. For example, some people the same age that have encountered similar situations mature over differences in time. Some do mature, others continue to act as though they are in middle school still. Throughout my 4 years of high school, I know seniors that are ready to go into the real world and seniors that still act as though it's their freshmen year in high school and i just do not understand WHY?! Every year when a new freshmen class comes in and I'd be talking to teachers and they'd say "You guys were like that once," I just DO NOT believe it. I know as a freshmen my class was immature, but I don't remember us acting like we didn't have any type of home training. Of course there were exceptions, but majority of the class in my opinion didn't act like wild animals. I wonder if it's that the freshmen get more and more immature and child-like looking or if it's that I'm getting more mature? I've talked to some people in school about this and they have agreed with me also so to test it out I would want to observe certain individuals from different types of social groups and watch them for four years to see how each one changes. I think I would my results would be fascinating!

Weekend Grab Bag.

Today I feel rejuvenated, I don't know why, but I do. I got home last night at about 1 o'clock, but I didn't go to sleep until 2:30ish. I didn't wake up until 12 o'clock and it felt great! When I woke up, I didn't want to get out of bed, but I dragged myself out of bed and went to greet my mother. I spoke with my mom for a little while before I hopped in the shower and went past Aliccia's house. Aliccia always has a way for brightening my day. (: So after I stopped past Aliccia's house for about 2.5 minutes, I went to go pick up Jasmine from her friend's house. Let me add that Jasmine looked terrible, but that's besides the point. After I dropped Jasmine off at home I went to work, YAY! (sarcasm). I had to work until 7:30 and because everyone was at home watching the Eagles, the store was dead and so time dragged. After work I went to go see my long-time friends, Darryl and Eric. I haven't seen nor spent time with them in a really long time so being with them made me feel rejuvenated and ready to go! We played about 5 rounds of this card game called @$&h)*%. It was really fun, but unfortunately I was the @$&h)*% twice because I lost. ): So anyway, being around my close friends help my days go better, but it wasn't until I got home that my day became extremely fantastic... When I came home, I was welcomed by the BEST niece in the WORLLDDD ! She makes my day PURR-FECT whenever I see her. I love her so much. I taught her how to do the twist, walk like a sumo wrestler, and how to say "I'll punch your nose," in a matter of 20 minutes. ( I'm such a great aunt !) So that was my day !

Project Exploration

For the past 2 years, I've wanted to become an ultrasound technician. What made me want to become an ultrasound technician was my niece Cyanni. While she was still in the womb of my sister's stomache, I went to see her in an ultrasound. When I saw her for the first time, I fell in love with her. Because of the feeling I got when I saw my niece through a computer screen, it made me want to give other people that same feeling when they saw their child, niece or nephew, or grand-child for the first time. Ever since Cyanni was born, I've wanted to do that. I've never had any doubts about what I wanted as my career since I went with my sister to her appointment. I want to be the person that helps a parent with their pregnancy so I can say, "I watched that baby grow."

Journal Writing.

Journal Writing. WEDNESDAY, 17 DECEMBER 2008-->

"How do I feel right now about journal writing?"

In my opinion, journal writing is very relieving. By writing journals, it helps me to organize my thoughts and review them clearly. By reading what I have written after, I can contemplate the situation thoroughly in different perspectives. Because I have only written in journals for my own personal recreation, I'm not exactly sure how I would feel using them for a class. I wouldn't doubt that I may like it better than writing by hand. I think it would make me actually want to write because it would save a lot of time and prevent my fingers from being sore.

"How might journaling help me as I navigate Senior Project Seminar?"

As I stated previously, journals can help me stay organized. Because I have the tendency to forget things quickly, writing in journals can help me back track and remember everything that I have learned. I'm sure without a doubt that I'm going to receive an overwhelming amount of information this last semester from my senior project, with that being said, using a journal could help me record everything that I've learned, when, and my opinion on it.

Grading.

Grading our blogs, in my opinion, is going to be hard because everyone is going to have their own amount of what they would like to write in their blog. Everyone has different time schedules and such, one student may not have learned as much as the other so grading would be different for everyone. In my opinion, the blogs shouldn't be graded on how much is written because it's obvious that the majority of the class seems to prefer blogging so, in my opinion, everyone will write as much as they can. I think that as long as us students do create our blogs like when were supposed to then we should get a 100%. As for the sufficiency of the blog, I think the blogs should definitely be more than a paragraph. I don't think a student should get full credit for a sentence because that's not the point of a blog. As long as it is obvious through the blogs that the student is on top of what their doing, they should get full credit. If it's obvious that the student is completely b%&#$*-@^;` the entire thing then they do not deserve full credit.